The Music Video for Closure
Welcome back. I’m going to assume if you listen to my music or what not that you’re familiar with the idea of closure. Maybe it’s because I think it’s something most people have longed for at one point in time or another. Is the need so big that it extends through and reached out to people, regardless of worldview? Or am I just super imposing my worldview on everyone again?
Anyway. I get chatty. You’d never know it from talking to me though.
Closure. The idea of letting something go. We get the visual of leaving things behind, or shutting the door on the past.
Often traumatic events that haunt us like ghosts in the hall. Its that itch we can’t scratch. Or the feeling of leaving the stove on once you’ve left the house. Is a fire waiting for you back home? Probably not. You’re just carrying the fire with you as it burns it way through your mind.
Closure is putting it out. putting it to rest.
The tape that keeps playing in your mind, bringing up the event, replaying it. It’s the present thief. Note to self, that would be a good title for an album…
Sometimes closure (often) is thought of as a defining event. “I need closure on our relationship” a grand statement to say it’s over. Suicides are especially difficult, when there is no note, and all you do is wonder and wonder. Theres no way to get closure. Theres no knowing why or asking any questions.
But maybe closure isn’t about slamming the door to the past. Maybe it’s not about closing the door at all. Maybe, it’s simply about saying (lets keep this damn door analogy going) I know what happened in that room. I accept what happened in that room. I dont need to close the door on it, because it doesn’t haunt me any more.
The voice that haunts you, reliving it, trying to figure it out, what if it’s not a fiendish ghost, but a good friend, simply trying to help you figure out why you’re hurting. Trying to move you forward, away from avoidance, and on to acceptance. Peace. No hiding, no closing things off. Just simply being ok with it.
Anyway. I made a song. and a video.
And I hope you enjoy them. And I hope you’re ok. And I hope that if you’re not ok, you realize that’s ok too, because most of us are not ok. and that’s the way we’re supposed to be sometimes.
~Wriddyl